I am glad that my comment could be of some encouragement to you. 🤍 And you are so right. No Christian is perfect, and their lives sure aren't either. It is good to be vulnerable. God can get glory from anything, and who knows how he will use your story!
I am sorry for what you are going through. That is real physical and emotional pain. I know that must be so hard. That is why it is crucial to depend on God for strength and comfort during this time.
I think it's important to remember that even Jesus, THE Son of God, was not spared physical or emotional pain on this Earth. His own friend betrayed Him. He was tortured to death. He knows what it is like to suffer, and He is there with you in your suffering. So, when we struggle, we can remind ourselves of how Jesus struggled for us. That alone can give us the strength we need to keep moving along.
Keep praying for your family and being a light. You and your family will be in my prayers. 🤍