I can't imagine all that is said behind the scenes in a church. I feel like I lived a lot of my life thinking it was all unicorns and rainbows.

The worst I get told from Christians is the shame thrown at me, because I struggle with anxiety. A lot of people make it seem like a lack of trust in God, but really it is a lack of trust in myself. I run to God for help, because I know He CAN. However, if I try to help myself, things go very bad lol.