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I Won’t Allow Myself To Be Bitter
I allow myself to feel a lot of things just not that…
As me and my family always say, I “came out of the womb wanting to be a mom.” I have always known what I wanted in life since I was just a little kid, and the thing that I have always wanted most is to be a mom.
My whole life has been dedicated to this dream. Keeping myself healthy has always been a top priority. Figuring out college and jobs was always difficult, because I knew that I was just going to be a stay-at-home mom one day. It determined who I could date and obviously who I ended up marrying.
Everything in life has been lined up perfectly for me to be a stay-at-home mom, but there’s just one thing missing… A baby.
What happens when you can’t have something?
It only makes you want it more, and you suddenly see that everyone has it but you.
If you didn’t know, I lost my first baby at eight weeks back in September. I got pregnant less than two months after getting off of birth control. I was so close to living my dream before it was snatched from me. I got a small…
