If God Puts It On My Heart, I Write It
No Questions Asked
By Grace K. Bianco
“Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.” — 1 Peter 4:10
My content is ever changing. Depending on what is happening in my life, you never know what to expect my endless posts will be full of. Each week, I am convinced I will never be able to come up with three posts, and each week, I come up with three posts.
Sometimes, my paragraphs are one sentence.
Sometimes, my paragraphs are multiple sentences.
Some posts are long.
Some are short.
Somedays, I rant.
The next day, I’ll tell you about all the good things in my life.
When you click on my post, you don’t know what exactly you are clicking on. I love it this way. I love writing what comes to mind. I love not boxing myself in to write about one singular topic. I am a talker with a mind full of thoughts. I need a space to let it all out.
But if there is one thing I could say about content lately, it’s how much I have been writing about God lately.
My Fire
I feel like I am constantly learning. Every life event (big or small) seems to shape me in some way.
I like to describe it as a fire inside of me. Just when I think it is cooling off, it burns harder.
If you have read some of my other posts, I talk about how when I was eighteen I had this fire to live. Change always scared me growing up, but at eighteen, I lived for change. I felt like a new person, and I know for a fact it wasn’t me making this change alone.
The point is… My reference to “fire” isn’t uncommon. I wholeheartedly believe that the fire inside of me is God. I don’t know how else to explain the feeling. Every time, I want to throw my hands in there and give up on something, I feel His presence. Whether it be through sudden unexplained peace, hope, comfort, motivation, or will to change the world, He’s there burning inside of me.
He’s always there, like a little candle. He guides me through the darkness, but just when I start panicking about the darkness all around me, He burns brighter and harder to help me see better.
The best Bible verse I can give to back up my words is Psalm 119:105. It says, “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”
My Joy
For many reasons, that “fire” is burning inside of me right now. I don’t just feel more at peace, but I feel an unexplainable joy.
Joy is much deeper than happiness. Happiness comes and goes, but joy is there to stay. In the midst of trials, you can still find joy through God.
On days I am tired, I still smile. On days I feel off, I still smile. On days I feel weak (mentally/spiritually), I still smile. Even in my constant struggle with anxiety, I find myself smiling more. I am not smiling as a mask to cover up real emotion. I am smiling, because God is with me. On bad days, He is there. On good days, He is there.
You may look at my resting face, and think, “That girl is NOT smiling.” When I say smile, I mean my heart is smiling. I am content. I see how much my blessings far outweigh my trials. I am thankful to just know God. There are days I feel like I will crumble under the weight of life, and then, I just don’t.
“When anxiety overwhelms me, Your consolation brought me joy.” — Psalm 94:19
My Evidence
As I said at the start of this blog, my content is ever changing, and lately, it has been full of God.
I write whatever is on my mind, and for obvious reasons, a lot of my mind is full of Him. If God puts something on my heart to write, I am going to write it. My gift of writing is from God, and I intend to use it in a way that pleases and glorifies Him.
“Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.” — 1 Peter 4:10
You can see the changes that have been taking place inside of me by looking at my content. My content is still very much me and full of my life and silly opinions. However, Christian posts are becoming the norm as well.
God is good, and He deserves to be talked about. This is my way to preach about Him.
I pray about my writing a lot, and if I ever become successful, it is not because of what I did. It’s because of what HE did, and I never ever want to forget that.
“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent. I have brought you glory on earth by finishing the work you gave me to do. And now, Father, glorify me in your presence with the glory I had with you before the world began.” — John 17:3–5
To some, this may very well seem like a crazy Christian talking. In some ways, I feel crazy (in a good way). To others, this may seem like that “perfect” Christian spouting off an unattainable perspective. I can’t say I blame you if feel that way, because I know what it is like to be in your shoes. But I hope many of you CAN relate.
Just know God wants to burn a “fire” in your soul too.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” — 2 Corinthians 5:17
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