Lost In My Writing Or Lost Without Writing?
By Grace K. Bianco
Most days, I am left thinking… What exactly is my priority?
Writing is my form of therapy. I am able to get my thoughts out, but also, look back on them. It helps me to rationalize and organize the chaos going on inside of me.
I have been blogging since September of 2018. One day, for no real reason, I decided to create a blog. I wanted to explain to the world why I didn’t go to college. I felt like I owed an explanation. I have no idea why to this day.
It felt completely random in the moment, but looking back, there was nothing random about it.
I really do believe that God wants me to write. Every time I thought I would quit, God gave me a bunch of reasons to stay. It’s been a great calling, but one that comes with many questions too.
Over four years later, I am still trying to figure this life out.
I published one book in 2020, and I am currently working on my second book.
I loved writing my first book, “Party Pooper: Growing up with Anxiety.”
It was on my entire life, and that is easy for me to talk about. It all came so easily, and at the time, my blog was barely anything. So, I just put it to the side and worked on my book.
I felt confident that I was doing what I was supposed to be doing.
This time around, I have a bigger online platform, and my book is much harder to write.
Most of the time, I have no idea what I am supposed to be doing.
I spend a lot of time on Medium and very little time on my book.
I make almost $60 a month on here. It’s been at a standstill since September…