Tales of a New Marriage

March 2, 2021

Grace Bianco here. I have been married for fifty-one days.

The morning started off with my husband getting back into bed with me. We talked for a little bit before falling asleep. I slept for a few more hours, and then, I got up for the day.

I felt better when I woke up. I decided to finally go to the library and catch up with all of my posts. I had continued to write everyday. I just couldn’t post due to no wifi.

I spent quite some time at the library getting both this blog and my other blog, newkindofliving.com, in order. Afterwards, I swung by Dollar General (practically live there now), and I got a glass bowl that I would be able cook rice in the microwave with.

When I got home, it was around 2:30. My husband would be up in an hour or so. As usual, I read to pass time.

He woke up a little bit before 4pm.

Before we knew it, it was time for him to leave. We hugged and kissed goodbye.

When he left, I made myself some lunch/dinner. It was just a rice bowl with lettuce, tomato, salsa, and crushed up lime chips. Since being married, various versions of this rice bowl has been my go to meal. Somedays, I call it a rice bowl, and other days, I call it a taco salad lol.

I did my little at-home workout. I read some more. I took a long shower.

At 10:30, I made a pb&j and ate two cuties. I called it my dinner. My eating and sleeping is all over the place with my husband being on night shift and me switching my own schedule around some.

I decided to watch Toy Story 2. I had told my husband I hadn’t seen it, but I definitely had. It wasn’t my favorite. I don’t like movies with a never ending conflict.

Throughout the night, I checked and rechecked my phone. My husband hadn’t texted me at all. The last time we talked it had been when we said goodbye. This was extremely unusual. This isn’t our first rodeo with an outage, and he had always been able to text here and there.

At 1:15am, I sent my goodnight message. I knew my body would be in and out of sleep with anxiety until I got a text.

At 3:30am, my body jolted awake. I grabbed my phone… still nothing.

Thoughts flooded my mind. I was angry with him one second and extremely worried about him the next. I went through every scenario possible.

Until 5:50am when he finally texted me, I had been in and out of sleep. I had woken up at one point with a throbbing headache and upset stomach. I took ibuprofen. Another time, I woke up covered in sweat. Anxiety is no joke when there is a legitimate reason to worry. It’s hard enough when there are irrational things to worry about.

His text said, “I am finally off. They moved me to the Drywell and the break room is deep in the plant with 0 service.”

My heart dropped. I began to tear up.

(I will pick up tomorrow where I left off today.)

That was my day… How was yours??

See you tomorrow!! Until then, follow me on Instagram @ gracekbianco for more!!